Struggling...

This was supposed to post last Thursday night... but it never posts right from my phone!

 

Struggling to process all that is going on right now in life...

So much!

My dear Oma Lindhout has advanced ovarian cancer. She just received her first chemo treatment today. We pray that these means may yet bless her with more time in the days of grace and that she may be blessed with the eternal blessing from above.

I love her so much - I don't know how to express myself around my feeling this has caused...

I shut down, I become a hermit, I do my own thing, I pray....

And yet life goes on - I remember when my great Opa Traas passed away, I was in grade 6 and my teacher said this to me, his first words upon seeing me after his death. I thought it was so callous, so rude to say, so wrong!! 

Yet here we have it, dentist appointments, preschool, house work,

taking care of the family, planning and booking for exciting weddings, ....

It's so hard; so hard to balance it all....

Hard to find reason behind the daily trivial things... 

Then we almost lost our pup... She decided to try eat some medicine for the cows...

Then explaining to Ranen and answering her questions the best way I can,

without lying - we try to never misrepresent the truth!!

But the pup is back to herself after a trip to the vet and it doesn't look like she will be permanently paralyzed like first thought so we are thankful and very happy about that!!

Our youngest....

Grows and grows and grows some more...

I'd love to freeze it right here, right now!!

This is one of my favourite stages!

(Even though she is such a mommy's girl... I feel very loved!)



Always loving on my family.... Xo